This week it was driven home that we need to read our DMPs and the last read of the day of the Scroll 1 with excitement. With Passion. With Gusto.
It needs to be read with intense feeling so the message can make it to the subconscious in a more effective manner.
This got me thinking or maybe remembering is a better term. I’ve been told – wow, I don’t even know if I can recall how many times – that I’m calm. Reserved. Quiet. I think my favorite was “whoa – I’ve seen people completely losing their s#!t for waaaay less – you’ve gotta be the calmest person I’ve ever met!”
I think it comes from the way I grew up. It wasn’t exactly an ideal household and I was left as the one that had to hold a lot of things together. There was a lot of yelling and unhappiness and seeing things that a kid really shouldn’t see. I was determined that I could escape that life. I would be different. All I had to do was keep it together until I could get out. So I became calm, accepting, & open-minded. And those traits stuck with me even after I left.
My point to all this is: I’m going to have to dig pretty deep to express excitement or passion or gusto. What if I can’t dig deep enough, be expressive enough, or feel enough to make an impact on my subconscious? Maybe this fear is just another sign of resistance being thrown up, because my subby wants to keep on doing what it’s always done.
Screw it. I’m making a change. Feel damn it! Feel!
Kelly's Master Key Experience 
As someone who also seems cool on the outside, I can relate to this. So glad you are embracing the challenge to Feel out loud. I found it to be so freeing and exhilarating at times to just let it all out.
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Hi Kelly,
You are a brave soul indeed to triumph over your childhood and still come out as a positive adult. That alone is worth shouting about! 😀
I totally understand what you mean with “subby” not wanting to do anything that’s actually good for you. Mine wouldn’t shut up all week. 🙂
You’re progressing well, as you see what is trying to stop you and you’re firing back and yelling at “subby” that you’re in control….it is not. “Subby” is dumb as a brick. You’re a powerful being with so much to give the world! 🙂
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Kelly Great MKE blog post. I can understand where you are… my first year, last year, I had to dig deep to get feelings also. There is also HEM too!
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